I've been lurking long enough so that I shouldn't have been surprised at the warm welcomes, but I'd like to thank all of you (especially the Thomas Covenant fans) for the kind words & advice. Like many of you, I have to be quite careful to keep my identity secret, but I will say that I am an elder and use whatever means I can to get others to at least think - it's not easy! My mother is in poor health and is probably in the early stages of alzheimers, so learning about me could very easily finish her off. i see my non-JW friend quite regularly and it definitely has helped me to finally talk openly - I've been keeping it secret for about 14 years now - used to lurk on newsgroups going way back. The single simple thing which clinched it for me was when I read that John 6:68 is always misquoted and then a sister did just that at the next meeting I was at! The thing which started me down the road to doubts was learning a bit about archaeology and realising that the WT interpretation of the bible couldn't be right.